“Can you accept the notion that once you change your internal state, you don’t need the external world to provide you with a reason to feel joy, gratitude, appreciation, or any other elevated emotion?”
― Joe Dispenza,
I didn’t sleep well last night. I was worrying, in obsessive thinking, holding on to my ego’s way of managing my emotions. I can remember when I was a child waking up thinking, “I feel really grumpy today, I’m going to hold onto that all day.” I could use that negative feeling to get attention. Friends, my parents, and perhaps teachers would ask me what was wrong. I could manipulate the world to make me feel better. Looking back, the “feel better” never lasted. Instead there was a never-ending pit of despair when I tried to fill it with the external world. I was just a child and didn’t know any better.
As an adult I get to take responsibility for my emotions. The reality of the world I encounter is whatever I let it be. If I am one self I am completely whole. I need no other influence, impact, or interaction than through myself to my Higher Power. As The Course says, “I see God’s perfect plan for my salvation perfectly fulfilled.”
From here I can follow into Dr. Joe Dispenza’s wisdom, my emotions are elevated from the inside out. What freedom this concept provides … that I am fully contained and can draw from within whatever feeling that I choose to manifest. My feelings impact my thinking, impact my actions, impact my experiences, impact who I am in the world. Why would I put anything back into that pot of gold than the “elevated” emotions I freely receive from it?
Why indeed. Today I tip my cup to let in the light of the Universe which is one with me. I feel it now. I know it is eternal and infinite. There is no need to grasp or cling to it. Abundance and gratitude fill me as I connect to a deep serenity. We are one.